Final Credits
So, the movie is over. Not sure if it was a romance or adventure comedy. Possibly a horror flick. Turns out my gut was more accurate than my heart was. I had a moment, this afternoon, where I was hurting again but then I moved out of it. I tried to see the whole thing from a different perspective.
And I could.
Human beings have basic needs. I think we all have the same needs. It’s how we deal with them that separates us. But what we need to not do is deny we have them.
And while we all feel heartache and pain, we also each deal with them differently, as well. Some of us just crawl into bed and hug the dogs and cry a bit. Some of us try to sabotage somebody else. And some of us just feel like shit that we have once again hurt somebody, when we thought we did everything possible to avoid it.
I’m sure there are many more ways we deal with our lives and trials and turmoils. But just because we deal with them differently, doesn’t mean we are feeling something more profound than somebody else.
We are all just doing the best we can with what we’ve got.
And despite how it ended or that it had to end at all, it doesn’t negate the great moments it held. *1
Notes
*1-This is exactly how I felt at the time. And I think it is still true. However, I also think, looking back on this, that his pain is far deeper than even he knows. So, while the rest of us re dealing with simple broken hearts and misplaced trust, he is dealing with a broken soul.
If you wish to read the whole story in order, now with notes, on my experience with Steven Monteforte (AKA Steven Joseph, and Jersey Steve) Here it is in order.
Post 1 Steven Monteforte Series. Start here. Taking Chances.
Post 2 Steven Monteforte Series. What Self-Preservation Mode Looks like… it ain’t pretty..
Post 3 Steven Monteforte Series. An Update.
Post 4 Steven Monteforte Series. The Incongruity of My Current Situation.
Post 5 Steven Monteforte Series. Final Credits.
Post 6, Steven Monteforte Series. It is what it is…
Post 7 Steven Monteforte Series. It must be a Marvel Movie!
Post 8 Steven Monteforte Series. Previews of Coming Events.
Post 9 Steven Monteforte Series. Sociopaths and Narcissists.
Post 10 Steven Monteforte Series. Stop blaming yourself.
Post 11 The details of the night I spent with Steven Monteforte.
Post 12 Steven Monteforte tries to scare me/bully me into silence.
Post 13 Steven Monteforte brief update.
Post 15 A brief discussion of why it’s not ok to just ignore Steven Monteforte. It wasn’t consensual.
Post 18 More information on sex addiction and why I think it fits Steven Monteforte.