Ok, so many of you are aware that the non-relationship ended quite badly. By that I mean, as it was already fizzling and I just couldn’t ignore or deny my gut feelings anymore, I got a simple text from Steven that sounded pretty final. Not bad… just done. And I was fine with that. It…
So, the movie is over. Not sure if it was a romance or adventure comedy. Possibly a horror flick. Turns out my gut was more accurate than my heart was. I had a moment, this afternoon, where I was hurting again but then I moved out of it. I tried to see the whole thing…
It’s 4AM. As usual, I’m up…. and unfortunately as is also usual, I’m second guessing. I’m not really second-guessing him or his intentions. I’m second-guessing my own and their incongruity with reality. *1 That’s a big word at 4AM. Incongruity. 5 syllables. I’m saying to myself that I’ve been lacking sleep and that puts me…
Most of the previous posts were written within a couple days or even hours of each other. I had said that I really needed to get into my thoughts and figure out what I was thinking and I had no other way to get into it. And once I started getting it all out, it…