So, the movie is over. Not sure if it was a romance or adventure comedy. Possibly a horror flick. Turns out my gut was more accurate than my heart was. I had a moment, this afternoon, where I was hurting again but then I moved out of it. I tried to see the whole thing…
It’s 4AM. As usual, I’m up…. and unfortunately as is also usual, I’m second guessing. I’m not really second-guessing him or his intentions. I’m second-guessing my own and their incongruity with reality. *1 That’s a big word at 4AM. Incongruity. 5 syllables. I’m saying to myself that I’ve been lacking sleep and that puts me…
Most of the previous posts were written within a couple days or even hours of each other. I had said that I really needed to get into my thoughts and figure out what I was thinking and I had no other way to get into it. And once I started getting it all out, it…
You have likely already read the post where I told you that I tried to end ‘it’ (the indefinable it) a couple times. The second time, my more definite attempt, is worthy of a post of its own. Imagine a 12 year old breaking up with her crush. Raising hand. Yeah… Given my failure to…